Bed Rest: Week 4

The baby registry is officially up. My mom and I went to Target on Monday to put some things on the registry. Let me tell you, I walked into the baby section and immediately felt overwhelmed. There are soooo many different brands of diapers, bottles, pacifiers, baby wipes, cribs, car seats, etc, etc, etc.... That section went on for aisles and aisles. You always want the best for your baby, so it was very difficult picking the best products from the merchandise that was on the shelves. And since I'm not supposed to be walking around for more than 30 minutes I had to execute this mission quickly and efficiently.

On Tuesday I had another doctor's appointment. I packed myself an overnight bag just in case she told me to go to the hospital again because I dilated further than 1 cm. Luckily for me everything was still the same and I got to go home!!!! Soooooo relieved! I know that it's better to be safe than sorry, but the hospital is just not the place where I want to be.

Wednesday my coworkers sent over a very nice gift basket with lots of goodies to keep me occupied during my bed rest.
It included: Garrett's popcorn, Ghiradelli chocolates, a puzzle, sudoku and hangman books, thermal socks, balls of yarn, Tevana tea, a photo album, scrapbooking supplies, some dvds, and magazines. It was the kindest gesture anyone's ever done for me. Hell, I've yet to receive a bouquet of flowers from my husband. The most I ever get from him are requests to do things around the house since I'm "here all day." There are definitely times when I can't stand my job or the predictable routine of going to work everyday, but I do feel that I have some of the best coworkers in the world and just going in just to converse with them keeps me in that department.

This morning was rough. I'm really starting to feel the effects of being stuck in the house all the time, with no one to talk to but the cat. I don't think anyone but me and women like me fully understand how it feels to be on bed rest. Not even my husband. I don't think he fully understands the effect it can have on a person mentally, physically, and emotionally. I'm usually home day in and day out 9am to 9pm. I see my husband in the morning before he goes to work and when he comes home at night after he gets out of night class. He has night class every day except Fridays. Even the weekends get lonely because he might have to meet with one of his groups. Like last Saturday he had a community service project to do. He left around 7am and didn't come home until around 7pm. Tomorrow he's going to a football game with one of his friends, a game that I thought I would've been able to go to but that's not the case. So once again, I'm stuck being alone on a Saturday.

Let me be clear that I'm on partial bed rest. My doctor said I can go out to eat, to the movies, or do activities like that as long as I'm sitting down. She doesn't want me laying around the house all day being bored. So I would have like to go to the football game, but there wasn't an extra ticket. Kinda makes me upset that he's going anyway. Like I said before, this bed rest thing is definitely not having a positive mental and emotional effect on me. I'm starting to resent the things my husband can do and the things that I can't do. I KNOW I'm supposed to be thinking about the baby, and I am, but aren't I supposed to be looking out for my well-being as well? I don't know how I'm going to make it through another 3 months doing this without losing my mind.